It’s Tuesday. Duh. Guess what I was watching? EWL. It seems that it has become a weekly ritual.
So tonight’s participant was a 30-something single woman who lost her confidence and let herself go. Hmmm…. does that sound like anyone we might know? It was a pretty emotional episode – I especially appreciated them showing all the times she completely fell off the wagon. I would have appreciated even more if they showed how she got back on the wagon, but its only a 2 hour re-cap of her year long journey.
Regardless… 2 key messages I liked from today.
- Honesty – actually admitting where you are, if and when you are struggling, etc.
- Stop striving for perfection – No one is going to be “on plan” every day. No one is going to hit every planned workout.
I think I’m struggling with both of those right now. I keep saying that I can’t do blah because I have to go to the gym – whereas in reality I’m just sitting on my couch reading a trashy romance novel or watching tv. This past weekend’s “drama” (ER visit, hospital stay, being told that my shortness of breath is just in my head *bull shit*, and 80 million follow up doctor appointments) is really getting in my head. I haven’t been to the gym once this week. I haven’t gotten to bed on time even once this week. I haven’t had a day where I’ve eaten on plan.
I get that I need to cut myself a little slack, but at the same time I feel that I’m cutting myself WAY too much slack. Per every test they ran at the hospital – there is nothing wrong with my heart or lungs. I have no activity restrictions. So why can’t I get myself back to the gym? I don’t need to hit every workout I had planned for the week, but I need to get back in there so I don’t un-do the bit of progress I’ve made so far.
So maybe the take away is balance. It’s ok to cut myself some slack and not strive for total perfection, as long as I’m still on the journey and making progress. And admitting where I am and what I’m struggling with is good to a point – but not so much that it turns into a mind-fuck and I can’t get out of my head.
I’m rambling. Just trying to sort this out for myself.